The Ordinary Me

 i want to actually know what's fulfilling me. and i think i know now that i want to make my parents proud first. i want to achieve my dreams. i really do. and i believe that i can achieve that one day. 

 i couldnt be happy at this moment. everything seems dull, grey and emotionless to me. i dont care if i lose or win anymore. i just feel like i need to breathe peacefully. because its overwhelming, seeing people being happy when im not. and i dont like to pretend. i need to move. i need to feel myself. i need to take a break.

 life hits you hard. it does bring you to places you dont even thought of. you dont like it, its hard to swallow, but its just life. and it goes on. and its okay to fall. to feel like a loser. but the amazing part is, you can change that. you can always change. and thats life.