The Ordinary Me

my head is spinning and its aching a lot. exam is just in two days and i havent catch up all the chapters yet. unfortunately not even two of em. i know i should just keep on revising and just dont give up. yes i wont but looking at my condition right now i cant. i want to share my problems with someone but i just feel that i shouldnt. (ouch. theres that aching again. ok i should be sleeping right now.) it feels that theres many things i wanna say but, i guess its best if i kept it on my own. bai.

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera Hai. I know its been a while that i havent update this blog kan? *letak tangan di bahu* hehe I've been busy i guess. Dulu bulan mac pigi belajar memandu. It took satu bulan lebih jugalah untuk graduate. Memang payah lah struggle dia. Setiap pagi kena tunggu bas. Sampai kedai kena tunggu lagi cigu ambil. Then bila balik kena cari lagi bas . Eseh merungut pula haha padahal lebih banyak lagi org lain yang lebih susah lebih jauh dari tempat litar banding dengan saya. But alhamdulillah berbaloi juga titik peluh dan kesabaran selama ini haha. Dan ya result UPU yang lepas amat lucu jugalah XD. Dulu harap lah nak masuk UIA kan nak sambung opto. Tapi rezeki bukan kat UIA. Tapi dapat kat UPM, ASPer ~  Tidak juga sedih sangat malah bersyukur jugalah dapat upu. Cuma itu lah degree untuk optometrist tak ada di UPM. Sekarang memang buntu sikit nak sambung apa selepas asasi. Kalau jadi vet maybe ok juga kan? Tengo lah dulu minat tu akan jumpa juga kot la

Assalamualaikum. I have a thought. About how people generate such ideas and turn it into a masterpiece. That  makes you awe in ways you couldnt imagine. Its so brilliant and just, genius. Genius such as writers, producers, inventors, and just those anonymous ones that havent been discovered yet. People like these have their own way of thinking. They control their own minds. Saying that things can be different and can be done in a better way. And wouldnt give a chance to anyone to tell them not to. They have a strong will and they believe they can do things we cannot imagine. Out of the box. And more than any box you could have. Orang seperti ini layak diberi anugerah. bagi saya lah. Dan memang jarang sekali dapat jumpa segolongan manusia seperti mereka. Bila situasi sedang genting, mereka tidak panik, well ndak sangatlah, tapi mereka berfikir. Secara semula jadinya, anggota badan mereka bertindak balas secepat fikiran mereka. Mereka tidak suka jika ada sesuatu benda

Everything continues to move on. Days. Children. Parents. Feelings. And time. Everything changes. You wont believe it now, but you will utterly nod then. For example, when its the last day of high school, or the last day when you saw your friends or families in their good health. You didnt believe it because, it didn't happen yet. But then the next day, everything turns all the way around. You've learnt that time is limited. Even if all humans have exactly 24 hours a day, it still seems too short to be able to realise it. You cant even remember since when you are already in your middle aged. Its like it was just yesterday you were born and just learning to make friends with other toddlers, and now you're learning how to get a life. At a point, you just have to grow up. And just follow the circle of life. And verily, to every living thing, death is another stage we have to begin. And this world is only a medium for us to know exactly what are the certainty tha

Assalamualaikum and howdy semua. Sekali lagi, saya mau post tengah tengah malam. hehe. Ya, saya tau juga tak baik stay up late ni semua. Its not good for your brain, your eyes.. eseh macam tau. (mungkinlah sebab agaknya degree mata saya meningkat sebab ini kot). Banyaklah yang tidak baik. Umi pun selalu pesan, "malam untuk kita beristirehat. Pagi buat kerja. Jangan tunggang balikkan sunnahtullah..." Okay umi. InsyaAllah pasni, saya try kurangkan stay up buat benda benda camni. hihi.  Sebenarnya saya minat dengan satu benda ni. Minat bidang actually. That is, optometri. Optometri ni bukan bidang yang perlu ambil medic semua. Itu Oftalmologist. Dia ni doktor pakar yang dah abis kedoktoran baru sambung lagi jadi pakar mata. Hanya Oftalmologist je yang boleh, dan pandai bedah bedah mata pesakit. Macam Profesor Doktor Muhaya :) (sori kalau salah nama. x brapa ingat XD well you know who i meant kan) i dont understand this pic either Kerja optometri ni berkait

Assalamualaikum dan hai. Akhirnya berjaya membuat 'muka baru' belog. walaupun bingung dengan segala code entah . Tapi syukur, alhamdulillah dah jumpa akhirnya :) Dan sayapun tetiba rasa mau post tengah malam. Sekali lagi. Sebab duk terfikir. Hari ni sudah masuk bulan tiga tahun 2015. Macam baru semalam tengo bunga api sambut tahun baru. Yang kononnya cakap dalam hati, "Haaa, a new chapter. A new beginning and another 365 days. Theres a long way ahead..bla bla bla.." Tapi bila sudah masuk bulan tiga ni, Hati i risau. Tapi kita sudah maklum juga kan. Inilah salah satu tanda tanda masa sudah hampir tiba. Kita ni yang di akhir zaman ni. But still, masih berjuta manusia di luar sana masih menganggapnya mustahil. Mustahil terjadi kiamat di depan mereka. Nauzubillahi min zalik. Ya Allah, daku pun tidak dapat bayang jika takdirnya, i witness it myself. Saya harap dan doakan, agar semua umat akhir zaman ni, sedar sedarlah dari penipuan dunia fana nih. Maksudny

Assalamualaikum dan hai semua. Well, result sudah ambil kemarin. Hati pun sudah berhenti dub dap yang amat tu. Alhamdulillah. Segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan seluruh alam. Hehe. Result saya tidaklah segempak kawan kawan saya yang lain. Cukup cukup makan je. Dan memang menunjukkan usaha saya selama ini. Tapi saya bersyukur jugalah dengan apa yang diberi ni. Sebab saya memang terima seadanya. Saya practice dari dulu lagi actually. Not expecting anything as they say dan memang betullah. Result saya dah yang macam saya anggarkan selama ni. Saya sudah benar benar redha bila masuk jak dewan tu. Pastu menunggu slip spm bila dah betul betul depan mata saya. Dan saya bangga dengan kawan kawan saya yang lain yang telah berjaya membuktikan bahawa sesiapa sahaja yang ingin berjaya, memang akan berjaya dengan adanya izin dari Allah azza wa jal. Nampak iras wajah mereka tu yang gembira buat sayapun tumpang gembira untuk diaorang. Sebab selama ini yang saya lihat, they really berpegang on the pha

Assalamualaikum dan hai lagi kepada anda semua. Masih ada alien alien kah di situ? *dush* Okay. Maaf sudah awal awal merepek. I just want to draw a smile on your face. It's good actually. Nampak manis bila senyum. Manis sangat. Eh. But anyways, betul lah juga. Start your day with a smile dia bilang tu.Walaupun tengah sakit di dalam. Sebab bila kau boleh senyum disebalik semua itu, itu tandanya kau kuat :) *thumbs up* Sebenarnya saya benar benar mau ubah rupa blog nih. Macam entah entah jak. Haha. Kosong, x menarik , dan waktu post dia salah. Itulah sebab bila saya ucap selamat malam, jam tu konon, 'posted at 07:40' apa kejadah semua ini. Pastu post dia memanjang ke bawah hinggalah sampai kau pun penat nak scroll. itu paling saya nda suka tentang blog ini. Nanti mau belajarlah about editing this blog. Hmm. Cuma teda daya sebenarnya. Takda komputer cemana juga. Post pun dari tablet. Susah juga kadang kadang sebab dia asyik automatically perbetulkan hampir semua perkataa

haii :) tiba tiba rasa mau post pula sebelum tidur lol. Ok. First. Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana telah diizinkan untuk lulus ujian komputer memandu tadi heks. Nyaris nyaris gagal. Well rugi ah kalau gagal. Burn terus rm30! Alhamdulillah. Hihi. Sebenarnya nerves gila juga sebab result spm kami makin dekat. Dup dab and de dups de dabs my heart goes. Tapi walau apapun. Kita kena redha tawakal dengan result masing masing nanti. Bak kata sorang ni, "Kita just boleh sedia kan hati kita untuk hadapinya" -F :") Kita manatau rezeki yang Tuhan bagi sama kita. It's ok maybe on the bright side, kalau kita nda dapat result yang gempak pun, mungkin dengan result tu kita dapat juga sambung pelajaran yang kita minat. Dan memang itulah diri kita sebenarnya. It's not impossible you know. Well kita merancang, tapi Allah yang menentukannya kan? InsyaAllah kalau sudah tertulis, maka itulah yang terbaik. iaitu,  Mektoub. Sudah tertulis. *menitis air mata. Tapi palsu lah lol

"Move on. Even if you loose something good."  In this life, certain things are inevitably and yet undescribable to our own self. We never did expect that the worse really happened to our lifes. Its like things like that only happen in the movies. But yeah, youll never know what your future might holds. God has planned it. Well enough so that we can digest it slowly and agree that in this world, you have to be bold. We might loose something precious to us. That we think we wont ever be apart from that happiness. Because you promised yourself that you will guard it and protect it with all your will. But forgot that the happiness that was with you all the time, was not yours forever. Allah can do what He is willing to . And He knows whats best for His slaves. Because even though you like something, doesnt mean it is good for you. And vise versa. And this part of my life of growing up, i noticed too. That i had lost some good things in my life. Yet some people too. Becaus

Assalamualaikum dan hai. Tak tahu lah. Actually dah banyak kali rasa gini. Sedih tapi boleh ketawa juga. Murung tapi tetap senyum. Cakap tabah banyak kali tapi tetap rasa nak nangis. Entah. Mungkin sebab diri ini sudah jauh dari Allah tulah hati selalu ndak tenang. Tulah nak handle some undescribable situation pun tak boleh :"( Ya Allah apalah nak jadi dengan diri ni. Sometimes, i just need a friend to listen. Who is willing to lend me some time just to be there. Who will know what words to say to make me feel better. Sebab bak kata smeone kat twitter, "kau pendampun, lama lama kan meletup jg". Yup. Shes right. And maybe im about to explode. Ats. Naah. Im not that pathetic lol. And i dont know whats happening w my bestfriend. We tend to not talk to each other. It hurts. I mean, i do miss her. But dont know why i didnt text her, ws, wechat, or anything to her lately. I dont know what to say anymore. Bcs, she wouldnt mind either if i do or not :( Last night, i dre