The Ordinary Me

i always thought about what i wanna be after this stage of my life. i always wonder if i could make any difference in this world. i like being at the present, but scared of my future. while the past is never be reached again.  why is it hard to make decision ? why do i have the feeling of insecurities? can i just fly like the birds?  just free .

I suddenly woke up from a dream. A dream which i was saying about something. A reminder, "Sujudlah. Kerana dalam sujud itu kau akan jumpa apa yang telah hilang." And i still remember what i said. It feels like im giving myself a reminder. Allah wants me to realize how i was getting far from Him. How i forgot to say His name with all my heart. I cried. because i was arrogant. really really arrogant. it hurts in my heart. How could someone do bad things to the one who helps you when youre in trouble? How could someone ask to another but didnt say thank you? I cried again. may Allah guide us back to Him. Ya Allah, knock my heart again Amin