The Ordinary Me

 so idk but i had like so many plans after ending this degree hahahah. i want to start my own merch, but for that i need to build my audience and start to practice more on art bcs gurll youre still lame in this sobs. and like yeah i want to study and research abt the trends nowadays. my passion is more to create stuff and might as well try and sell them. even though i dont have any business background and basic knowledge, but ill try to learn them as i go. oh yeah kinda excited to start a business with my bae too. weve talked about making websites together and yeah basically sell merchandise haha I mean collaborating with your best friend??? that would be a dream come true >.<  yeah so i just wanna put it here. i hope i can come back with updates on how i finally start to do this plan yayerzz

i cant believe degree life is almost over. like lepas habis final ni teda sudah vibe student tu bcs 6months of internship lain sudah environment. im not that emotional to end my degree life because due to online learning, i dont feel that much attachment or sad feeling of saying farewell to my classmates. ive gone past that phase like in october 2020 after knowing we were bound to stay another semester in our houses and do learning separately. like jeez it really developed a new environment and how it created like a gap between me and my friends now. its not the same as having virtual interactions than face-to-face communication. sometimes i feel like I'm lost because everything is driven by my own will because usually i got my realization from my friends hahaha. hm i think thats the biggest issue for me. i am easily distracted and tbh, it drained my mental health a lot. i couldn't stand up strong enough on my own. luckily there are still some friends that helped me through it.