The Ordinary Me

Assalamualaikum and hey u all. Saya kembali. Kembali merepek lagi. Hah. Be ready. Pernah tak terasa sesuatu di hati ni macam ada disentuh? Di genggam? Di selimuti? Saat kau berdoa pada Yang Maha Esa? Masyaallah.. Daku sebak terus pada saat itu. Hati meronta ronta bertanya apa yang telah kau buat dengan hatimu?? Hati terseksa kerana telah membuat perkara yang menjauhiNya. Sebenarnya si hati telah lama membawa dan menghindari diri daripada perkara yang melalaikan itu. Telah lama membisik kita untuk kembali menghadap Allah. Namun hati gelap, bisu, tuli. Menuruti nafsu serakah. Setiap hari memohon kebaikan dari Allah namun selepas itu lupa kepada  Yang Maha Memberi. Saat melihat orang orang yang beriman terasa diri sungguh hina. Menyoal diri kemana sudahnya pergi iman dan istiqamah itu. Bertanya akan diri dimana sudah cinta dan rindu terhadap Allah? Aku takut. Sungguh takut akan mati.  Kalian pernah terasa?

Akan rindu, Sedang merindu, Begitu rindu. Rumah, umi, abah, kakak, abang, adik. Sungguh semua ini.  Esok akan menjelang. Menyambung semula kehidupan sebagai seorang pelajar. Al maklum, asrama penuh. Sebulan sekali saja. Baiklah kalau begitu.  Akan rindu, Sedang merindu, Begitu rindu. Sekolah kesayangan, gengkawan, guru, adik adik. Kelas dan bilik, Tempat ku belajar, berdiri dengan kakiku sendiri. Pengalaman yang tidak boleh didapati dimana mana Itulah sekolah. Ku akan merindu saat saat ini. Kelak, ku akan jaramg sekali melawatnya. Setelah masa membawa ku pergi. Lalu menjadi tua dan tua. Akan ku rindu, Sedang ku rindu, Begitu sekali rindu...

Assalamualaikum and hai yall', Senyum nampak? Gembira eh? Ohoho. Me too. Sebenarnya hari selasa ni saya balik sekolah dah. YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!    ( U.U) Apa? Awak pun tumpang gembira utk saya? Well then, fine. Fine! Haha merepek banget saya ni. Tidak perasan kan? Cutipun macam bukan cuti jer. Havoc! P/s Itukan word yg trending sekarang. Haivork :P hmmmm smart lagi homewerk. Yang sudah tentu trending spanjang masa. Sepanjang cuti yg akn datang. Speaking of homewerk, i didnt finish it like we were told to. Sebab hw kali ni kena buat di interrnet. Masuk Frog.com. :( masuk katak lah homework ku ni. Susah juga bei mau buat di sana. No feeling lagi. But it doesnt mean that i hate the idea. Its just mendorong me to do other things when i open the internet. Oh my. Sorry teacher. I hope i just.......ummmm. Survive? Tak tau malu betul anak paci kaipin nih. Allah. Harap harap tidak kena tembak oleh cegu.hihi. And haha matlamat cuti pada kali ini berjaya juga dilaksanakan! Hip hip hoorray!...

Assalamualaikum and howdy, December. December. December. Haiyya dok tinggal satu minggu lagi!! Sakit jiwa aku nih. .___. Hmmm. Naaa boleh lah juga. Meskipun i still cant accept the fact that im gonna be 17 and like taking spm and all those stuffs. Im still........sigh' Days at home felt just like a couple of days. Maybe because i was too busy berfoya foya. Ats. Bukan laa foya sangat just wasting time. :0  I did revise a little bit. And found out that some of it wasnt that hard. I finally understood how electrolysis works. Yuiiii. I shouldnt have played too much at school. Hmmmmm.                                              Then again, sekolah dah nak buka.. And preperation for it, baru separuh dibuatnya. Hmp, kasut sukan yang bebulan bulan di rak luar blum lagi disentuhnya. Abah ada marah hari tue.. "Mau tunggu reputkah tu kasut?!" Ehehe. Sorry abah. Lupa :') hek eleh...

Assalamualaikum dan saam sejahtera. Sooo, my life as a form four is about to end. Huh. Sedih jugak. Pendek kata, "honeymoon" dah nak sampai expirery date. Geng, banyak main tau saya time form four nih. Haiiiyu. Hoho. Result akhir tahun pun, ouch, cukup memeranjatkan. Not what i've expected. Menyesal sangat sebab ndak study dengan bersungguh sungguh.                                  Kelas sy next year bukan lagi alpha i guess. Haha. Memangpun kali. Ntah cygma kut. Tapi bab kelas nie, sy ndak kesah sangatpun. I'll love it anyway with all my other friends and new persepsi. Yang penting, belajar biar betul and focus lagilah betul betul. Biarlah terpisah dengan gengkawan yang telah sehati sejiwa 4 tahun bersama, tapi im okay jer. Boleh juga jumpa tyme di dewan makannn. Ntah. This year has been the busiest year i've felt for the past 4 years i had been at smesh. Penat jugaklah. Tapi i guess memang akan terjad...

The Truth. Where is it?  The things that  you Kept. Where you hid it?    People lie to themselves. Pretending that they're innocent. Acting to be nice infront of people. But what about In front of Allah?They just look down. Forgetting the things that they wish it hadnt happened. They knew they were wrong. They knew it was awful. But they just keep doing the things they knew they shouldnt. The next day, they lived like there was nothing. They walk as if their act was never seen nor known by anyone. they felt, they have another day to live. Another DAY to LIVE. They kept laughing until their hearts are rotten. They keep talking about people. Distribute raw news about that person. Making others look awful to their friends ear. Making bad impressions. And they are still laughing.. They watched tv. They watched them until it was late. Late to meet The Creator. To meet our beloved. The One who loves us everyday. Everyday. The One who believed in us that we ...

Assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera kamu semua. Hai,... So, i haven't post anything since 6 or more months ago. To be honest, im just lazy. hehe. Thats all. My life is different now. The way i see it, it turned all away around. My life before seemed to be a lot more easier and what do they say it.. its a piece of cake. But today, that piece of cake had turned into a burrito. I felt so calm, happy, not so stressed and yeah living a life with no worries. But that was me before i turned 16. gehh. hehe. NOW, my head is full of things to worry, to do, to think, to....... carry responsibilities. What am i kidding? Yaaa, im not so stresssed out of being a 16teen actually. Im fine. Im okay. I know that someday things like this will come eventually. More than that, why should i be worrying about? When i have my best, helpfull and rocking friends to keep me cheered and light up my day when i almost gave up and feeling hopeless? geehee. I might just exploded myself out without the...