The Ordinary Me

Assalamualaikum dan saam sejahtera. Sooo, my life as a form four is about to end. Huh. Sedih jugak. Pendek kata, "honeymoon" dah nak sampai expirery date. Geng, banyak main tau saya time form four nih. Haiiiyu. Hoho. Result akhir tahun pun, ouch, cukup memeranjatkan. Not what i've expected. Menyesal sangat sebab ndak study dengan bersungguh sungguh.                                  Kelas sy next year bukan lagi alpha i guess. Haha. Memangpun kali. Ntah cygma kut. Tapi bab kelas nie, sy ndak kesah sangatpun. I'll love it anyway with all my other friends and new persepsi. Yang penting, belajar biar betul and focus lagilah betul betul. Biarlah terpisah dengan gengkawan yang telah sehati sejiwa 4 tahun bersama, tapi im okay jer. Boleh juga jumpa tyme di dewan makannn. Ntah. This year has been the busiest year i've felt for the past 4 years i had been at smesh. Penat jugaklah. Tapi i guess memang akan terjad...

The Truth. Where is it?  The things that  you Kept. Where you hid it?    People lie to themselves. Pretending that they're innocent. Acting to be nice infront of people. But what about In front of Allah?They just look down. Forgetting the things that they wish it hadnt happened. They knew they were wrong. They knew it was awful. But they just keep doing the things they knew they shouldnt. The next day, they lived like there was nothing. They walk as if their act was never seen nor known by anyone. they felt, they have another day to live. Another DAY to LIVE. They kept laughing until their hearts are rotten. They keep talking about people. Distribute raw news about that person. Making others look awful to their friends ear. Making bad impressions. And they are still laughing.. They watched tv. They watched them until it was late. Late to meet The Creator. To meet our beloved. The One who loves us everyday. Everyday. The One who believed in us that we ...

Assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera kamu semua. Hai,... So, i haven't post anything since 6 or more months ago. To be honest, im just lazy. hehe. Thats all. My life is different now. The way i see it, it turned all away around. My life before seemed to be a lot more easier and what do they say it.. its a piece of cake. But today, that piece of cake had turned into a burrito. I felt so calm, happy, not so stressed and yeah living a life with no worries. But that was me before i turned 16. gehh. hehe. NOW, my head is full of things to worry, to do, to think, to....... carry responsibilities. What am i kidding? Yaaa, im not so stresssed out of being a 16teen actually. Im fine. Im okay. I know that someday things like this will come eventually. More than that, why should i be worrying about? When i have my best, helpfull and rocking friends to keep me cheered and light up my day when i almost gave up and feeling hopeless? geehee. I might just exploded myself out without the...

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera semua~ yaa~ hidup form 4 sangat-sangat berbeza dari dahulu punya. sekarang barulah sedar yang sekarang perlu banyak fokus dan ya, fikir lebih. tapi kadang-kadang boleh terkandas dan lupa bahawa diri nie sudah menjejak ke situasi yang baru sudaa.........SPM. boleh-boleh lagi saya ketawa dan buang masa. hoho. sorry to say, tapi sikap yang dulu masih lagi terbawa-bawa sampailah ke hari ini. :( cuti ni, mungkin peluang untuk saya mengulangkaji semua yang tidak dapat catch up~ terutama addm3 dan bio. mau menangis pula sikit..hhe. but need some support to push this body and mind to finish kan dulu homework! yang..........................baru berapa peratus siap. ululu. Insyaallah iyan kasi siap. all 6 of em time balik rumah, terkejut. sebab makin banyak kucing di rumah. kiut tapi brings a lot of problems. asyik-asyik pooping~ syukurlah tinggal asrama. tidak perlu bersihkan tiap hari. sorry adik, i guess its all up to you then~ form4...

assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera. Alhamdulillah that i still survived until this very on:) haha. memang tidak terasa sudah 3 minggu berlalu! banyak sudah perkara baru yang sya dah pelajari~i mean syllabus form 4. pening2 tapi bolehlaa.  memang semangat tau hari first sekolah tu. sebab well u know, it's all new chapters, new responsibilities, new dormates, new everything.  feed me!    EXCEPT kelas..... ulululu sudah 4 tahun berturut-turut an Alpha-rian. terdetik jugalah mau masuk kelas lain konon, mau rasa suasana yang berbeza, suasana muka baru, just want to know some new perspective.. But sudah takdir, terima jaklah:) ada juga baik dia kali. walaupun itu juga muka yang balik2 jumpa, balik2 bercakap,...tapi ndak apalah, i'm grateful to be still one of it.    untunglah kali bagi orang yang sudah merasa 4 kelas yang berlainan :P dari form 1 sampai form 4, mesti banyak pengalaman dan new things they've experience kan? Lucky them~  ...

  it was right outside my window. Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera. Memandangkan cuti sekolah almost over, dan semestinya smua orang sibuk mengurus barang untuk pegi sekolah, nampaknya YA, sayapun. entah kenapa tahun 2013 nie, rasa semangat pula mau pulang balik ke sekolah kesayangan tue. selalunya, rasa berat betul mau tinggalkan rumah yang penuh kebebasan,dapat main basikal, makan masakan umi, tengok tv, cubit pipi adik dan akhirnya kena belasah balik....... Tapi, alhamdulillah rasa keinginan untuk menimba ilmu semula macam bergelora pula dalam hati nie :) tidak sabar untuk menjadi form 4 lah agaknya~ tidak sabar untuk memulakan hari persekolahan yang penuh cabaran! i can feel the adrenaline~ tapi semua itu bergantung dengan niatlah juga. saya sedarlah juga. saya datang pigi sekolah tue bukan untuk main2 dan haha ketawa sini sana.. saya sedar yang belajar tue biarlah belajar betul-betul dan bila main tue biarlah time main jak:) selama nie, kadang-ladang jak ing...

         Jadi nampaknya setelah menunggu 1 bulan yg membimbangkan smpai termimpi-mimpi laagi.. FINALLY, pada keramat 19 Disember, hati nie dah tenang:) parak tudung.. Ndak ku kisah~ Sebelum pigi sekolah tu, dah siap gosok baju, sms kawan.." jam brapa mw dtg?" "kw datang  juga?" "sudah iron baju ka ni?" and all those things.      Malam tu, sy berdoa btul2 hati ni akan tabah dan tenang pabila sudah terima result PMR nanti. Sy tdak mau kecewa, sedih dan kecewa pula nanti. Biarlah apa yang Allah beri nanti menjadikan saya lebih baik, lebih rajin tuk berusaha, dan memahami bahawa inilah usaha saya selama ni.. Inilah hasilnya.    Sampai jak di sekolah tu, sudah nampak kawan-kawan yg rindu TERAMAT di depan dewan. Ya Allah sy bilang. ."eee rindu btul dorang. Alhamdulillah dapat jumpa balik" bisik hati....     Pastu ndak lama lepas tu, cigu J pun suruh semua pelajar masuk sama2 ngan ibubapa mereka yg turut sama takut....