i couldnt be happy at this moment. everything seems dull, grey and emotionless to me. i dont care if i lose or win anymore. i just feel like i need to breathe peacefully. because its overwhelming, seeing people being happy when im not. and i dont like to pretend. i need to move. i need to feel myself. i need to take a break.
Assala mualaiku m dan hai this laptop have a slight proble with the capital ' m'. susah nak tekan. so, kalau ada yg tak kena dengan ayat saya nie faha-faha je laa k? sorii. Baiklah, 5 tahun sudah berlalu. Highschool is finally over. And i a m slowly accepting that. That my life fro m now onwards, will be getting different. Sesetengah of my friends are still sad about it. Yet so me, are just moving on. As for myself, i m thinking of a way to genuinely use this leisure ti me wisely i guess. because, i really wanna do all the things that sela ma ini hanya meniatkan dala m hati dan tidak pernahpun gerakkan badan untuk laksanakannya. hihi. although so meti m es, when i m busy with all that, teringat pula dengan gengkawan-gengkawan yang gila2 kat sekolah. Perasaan rindu mulai menyelebungi diri. Terus terflashback everything. Gah. Walaupun clise, inilah lu mrah kehidupan :'( "Every hellos, will ends with goodbyes"- H Ker...
Helu gais. Its been 3 years. 3 years haha im supposed to be in my 7th semester but because i changed my course after a one year in bachelor of forestry into food technology. now im almost at the end of semester 5. haha gila paling busy rasa. but i can cope with it. i still wanna live another day. its alr subuh now and i just finished doing mahaba stuffs. you know the dinner for final year at kpz which im supposed to be diraikan bersama but instead, saya yang jadi ajk hahaha and buat publisiti again for the sekian kalinya. jujur cakap, this one paling satisfying la kerja sa buat sebab lawa gila HAHAHAHA well not wanna brag but, im proud of myself. maybe some part of me wants to give the best for my friends :') and actually, theres a lot happening in my mind. esp this one thing but i chose to ignore it. its not the best way to deal it but seriously, im tired. i cant do it. i really cant do it at this rate. mau masuk week 14 ok what do you expect? :') ofcourse la busy kan kemu...
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