like we used to.


assalamualaikum dan hai smua orang~
    hmm oklah here i want to share a story.. a story which changed a little bit of me:)

I have a friend here. We are at the same age, gender, shcool....but there was one thing that we are not same though... we weren't at the same class starting this year. Last year, when we knew this, she cried. she hugged me and i just hold her and tell her that it will be ok. She just keep crying and said, "i don't want to saperate with you guys.." maybe lah..macam gitulah yg dia cakap..lol.. But so, i cried too and kept quiet while holding her......
      cuti panjaang had pass and 2012 came in. She went to her class, and i went mine. Even so, we still keep in touch. We went recess together, riadah together, sleep over together, eat together...just like we used to.

nihh, dia yang tulis. dia cakap saya wangi. Or did she?

(I think i became very nakal)  It was so fun. As if all the trouble been swept away and there's just that sunshine that will always play with you, will wipe the sadness away, and just be there for you. Yes, i really feel grateful that Allah gave me such a good friend.
    And i still remember when i went to that latihan for sukan daerah at tambunan for 3 days. It was very tired-ing...Alhamdulillah i managed to survive. When it's finally to go back to shcool, i saw her at the corridor, so i silently surprise her...but boo~ she saw me. She screamed.. " iyaan!!!"(not a loud scream. mcm ckp dgn org tapi dgn nada yg tinggi) saya pun terkejut~ haha. We hugged each other. Gees, i missed you! saya bilang...Suddenly, i saw her eyes had a liitle air mata.. Woo~she really miss me that much? i dont know but i was really touched. There is still someone who would do that to me....

    Banyak lagi kenangan-kenangan.. like that one time, she had a demam and it was very hot. So both of us didn't go to prep that night. She's sick, and im there to take care of her. I feel so much like a mother..huhuu~ poor her. but lol, ada checking malam tue..
actually there's still many things but  i can't remember... -_-' but what i remember is,  we we're happy.

she thinks im special..so she gave me this.
     Then in a sudden, i never realised that time we're waaaay ahead of me. I don't know what happened but..our friendship slowwwly, fading away:(

 Slowly, we didn't go to recess together, we didn't go to eat at dewan makan together, we didn't go to riadah together, we didn't have sleep over together, and we didn't do the things we do anymore. I dont know what went wrong. I think back, maybe it's because of me..but i didn't realise..or is it her?. I dont know. But i still believe that there are reasons for it. I still believe that Allah is hiding something between the lines...
   
    Everyday, i just think of good things, and just tried to not over react myself just because of that. But day by day, my spirit, my confidence and my smile cant get it though  anymore. Because you know that feeling when you're next to that person, but she just pretend that you're not there. It's just..fuhh, "Hey, can you just turn around and look at my smile? please?.. " And our friendship finally became just friends...


 At night, my tears slowly turun down my cheeks without any of my orders. I was just trying so hard to hold it but so..my heart can't take it anymore.. My other friends saw it. maluu~

But thanks for my friends who where still there for me. They helped me to stand back up again. They helped me to smile again... And all that i can think at that time, is just move on and PMR. Sudah tiba masanya untuk betul-betul faham perasaan orang lain. Memang ada juga sebab dia buat camtue. Hanya tinggal diri sendiri jak untuk sedar sendiri. Just, accept it.
 
When we pass each other that day, she suddenly looked at me...with a smile. So i just smiled back at her.. But why? sooo not her. I just think that she is being weird at that time. Did i  just did something?  And after that, without noticing, we we're talking and laughing with each other. Just like puff! magic~  What just happened there? I felt so grateful..  because I finally knew what Allah wanted me to see...
Friendship does change...
                          but they don't  always have to end~

Days went through and so does Pmr.. Alhamdulillah we made it. Even though, we we're not the same like we used to, but i accept it anyway. Because in  life, there's just things you've got to let go. And don't worry, we will still be like we used to even if it doesn't look like we are....

we we're meant to be friends..


Thankyou  for the friendship, kid.

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