The Ordinary Me

Helu gais. Its been 3 years. 3 years haha im supposed to be in my 7th semester but because i changed my course after a one year in bachelor of forestry into food technology. now im almost at the end of semester 5. haha gila paling busy rasa. but i can cope with it. i still wanna live another day. its alr subuh now and i just finished doing mahaba stuffs. you know the dinner for final year at kpz which im supposed to be diraikan bersama but instead, saya yang jadi ajk hahaha and buat publisiti again for the sekian kalinya. jujur cakap, this one paling satisfying la kerja sa buat sebab lawa gila HAHAHAHA well not wanna brag but, im proud of myself. maybe some part of me wants to give the best for my friends :') and actually, theres a lot happening in my mind. esp this one thing but i chose to ignore it. its not the best way to deal it but seriously, im tired. i cant do it. i really cant do it at this rate. mau masuk week 14 ok what do you expect? :') ofcourse la busy kan kemu...

i always thought about what i wanna be after this stage of my life. i always wonder if i could make any difference in this world. i like being at the present, but scared of my future. while the past is never be reached again.  why is it hard to make decision ? why do i have the feeling of insecurities? can i just fly like the birds?  just free .

I suddenly woke up from a dream. A dream which i was saying about something. A reminder, "Sujudlah. Kerana dalam sujud itu kau akan jumpa apa yang telah hilang." And i still remember what i said. It feels like im giving myself a reminder. Allah wants me to realize how i was getting far from Him. How i forgot to say His name with all my heart. I cried. because i was arrogant. really really arrogant. it hurts in my heart. How could someone do bad things to the one who helps you when youre in trouble? How could someone ask to another but didnt say thank you? I cried again. may Allah guide us back to Him. Ya Allah, knock my heart again Amin

my head is spinning and its aching a lot. exam is just in two days and i havent catch up all the chapters yet. unfortunately not even two of em. i know i should just keep on revising and just dont give up. yes i wont but looking at my condition right now i cant. i want to share my problems with someone but i just feel that i shouldnt. (ouch. theres that aching again. ok i should be sleeping right now.) it feels that theres many things i wanna say but, i guess its best if i kept it on my own. bai.

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera Hai. I know its been a while that i havent update this blog kan? *letak tangan di bahu* hehe I've been busy i guess. Dulu bulan mac pigi belajar memandu. It took satu bulan lebih jugalah untuk graduate. Memang payah lah struggle dia. Setiap pagi kena tunggu bas. Sampai kedai kena tunggu lagi cigu ambil. Then bila balik kena cari lagi bas . Eseh merungut pula haha padahal lebih banyak lagi org lain yang lebih susah lebih jauh dari tempat litar banding dengan saya. But alhamdulillah berbaloi juga titik peluh dan kesabaran selama ini haha. Dan ya result UPU yang lepas amat lucu jugalah XD. Dulu harap lah nak masuk UIA kan nak sambung opto. Tapi rezeki bukan kat UIA. Tapi dapat kat UPM, ASPer ~  Tidak juga sedih sangat malah bersyukur jugalah dapat upu. Cuma itu lah degree untuk optometrist tak ada di UPM. Sekarang memang buntu sikit nak sambung apa selepas asasi. Kalau jadi vet maybe ok juga kan? Tengo lah dulu minat tu akan jumpa juga kot la...

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